So Why a Living Room?

Monday, May 3, 2010

Helicopter Leaves

Dear God,

Sorry I was kind of grumpy today.  I just got overwhelmed with everything that needs to be done and I was trying to process all the feelings I have about moving and leaving our friends here and planning for our new life in Colorado and figuring out what is worth stressing about and what isn't...and the weight just seemed heavy and I forgot about a lot of my blessings.

 Thank you for sending the rain, wind, and helicopter leaves at the perfect time.  I was finishing up the dishes and rotating a load of laundry when I looked out the kitchen window and saw the grey clouds gathering and the wind blowing.  I was just sort of pouting along, feeling like motherhood and life is a lot of hard work, and feeling hopeless that I will ever be able to accomplish everything that I need to.  Then I saw the helicopter leaves swirling around in the sky--dozens of them--twirling around like little butterflies, being carried by the wind.  For some reason, that changed everything.

I ran upstairs and called to Ethan and Jake  to come quick and see what was happening outside.  We scurried off to the back porch, where we proceeded to watch the whimsical helicopter leaf show. My boys squealed with delight as each gust of wind brought a new batch of spinning leaves, and we tried to catch them before they flew into the next yard.  We laughed and ooohed and aaaahhed and let the wind and the sprinkling rain embrace us.

Suddenly I felt joy again, and motherhood was a privilege, and life was a gift, and my children were the sweetest reminders to treasure the little things.

Thank you for children, for wind, for rain, for helicopter leaves, and, yes,  even for a lot of hard work.  

I'm still learning how to look up and find the joy. 
Please keep teaching me.

Love Em


Jax said...

I am so jealous that you are moving back to Colorado! When do you go? I will probably be in Utah for a long time, but hope some day to move back home. I can also see how hard it would be to leave all the friendships and memories behind (I would feel overwhelmed and emotional too)! Next time I am in COlorado, we will have to get together!

whitney said...

Gretchen Rubin wrote a book called, "The Happiness Project" if you were staying I'd let you borrow it. Its entertaining and I've found some good suggestions, one of which is to act the way you want to feel. It totally works and it makes me smile when I successfully change my attitude by faking it to begin with.

Rachel said...

Thank you for sharing a lovely moment from your day. You are very wise, Em.